it is around 4am at present, give or take, and work has been productive throughout the night, fortunately really as one of the residents is in a bit of a dark place and sleep would have been impossible.
Coming home around midnight with a friend the sounds were quite cheerful as the night went on, fuelled with alcohol I could hear his gradual decline through the social graces to a point where he now sounds like a madman, trying desperately to escape his confines, away from some demon or other that occupies his space at this nightmarish state of mind.
It is only through watching others and their actions that we are truly able to see ourselves.
It is sad to witness though I am still fortunate to live where I do, I have a beautiful studio flat within a building that is run by a charity for homeless and vulnerable people, a nice bunch by all accounts and it is always sad when i hear one or the other fighting with themselves; But by the grace of God go I........
with around 12 weeks remaining before the next exhibition there is much to do, in addition to the actual work there is all the admin to do, guest invites, posters and their design, liase with the marketing people at stonham, it being a charity do adds a lot of other jobs into the equation aswell not making it any easier though the strange thing is that as the deadline comes closer the stress gets forced into a calm and far more work is done, at the moment i am really just concentrating on the artwork, it is my first independant show, when i say independant i dont mean as a solo artist but independant from having to 'proove' myself, so much self doubt has been banished, this is my first show where I am truly doing the kind of art that I want to do at this moment in time without having to consider if the viewer could see what it was that i was looking at, absolute self doubt that no-one would 'get it', if you like.
this exhibition is about the images that are seen and reported most commonly as 'the face in the clouds', this exhibition is about challenging the order from chaos theory and presenting work that to all intent and purpose, at least to a portion of society, would be deemed as ' crap ' they call it crap because........ they cant see it!
The moral of the story really is simply, "If you cant see it then dont look, you will only get in the way of someone who can".
Coming home around midnight with a friend the sounds were quite cheerful as the night went on, fuelled with alcohol I could hear his gradual decline through the social graces to a point where he now sounds like a madman, trying desperately to escape his confines, away from some demon or other that occupies his space at this nightmarish state of mind.
It is only through watching others and their actions that we are truly able to see ourselves.
It is sad to witness though I am still fortunate to live where I do, I have a beautiful studio flat within a building that is run by a charity for homeless and vulnerable people, a nice bunch by all accounts and it is always sad when i hear one or the other fighting with themselves; But by the grace of God go I........
with around 12 weeks remaining before the next exhibition there is much to do, in addition to the actual work there is all the admin to do, guest invites, posters and their design, liase with the marketing people at stonham, it being a charity do adds a lot of other jobs into the equation aswell not making it any easier though the strange thing is that as the deadline comes closer the stress gets forced into a calm and far more work is done, at the moment i am really just concentrating on the artwork, it is my first independant show, when i say independant i dont mean as a solo artist but independant from having to 'proove' myself, so much self doubt has been banished, this is my first show where I am truly doing the kind of art that I want to do at this moment in time without having to consider if the viewer could see what it was that i was looking at, absolute self doubt that no-one would 'get it', if you like.
this exhibition is about the images that are seen and reported most commonly as 'the face in the clouds', this exhibition is about challenging the order from chaos theory and presenting work that to all intent and purpose, at least to a portion of society, would be deemed as ' crap ' they call it crap because........ they cant see it!
The moral of the story really is simply, "If you cant see it then dont look, you will only get in the way of someone who can".
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