Liberation

Few could tell of the feeling of freedom and choice in abundance unless some form of Liberation had been experienced in ones life-time, I would suggest to anyone who felt unable to express the simple lack of words to describe the simple joy just, 'to be allowed', it is as envigorating as taking a shower under the falls of some naturally occuring shower after not being clean for some time, it is empowering in as much as all you had ever dreamed of suddenly being placed at your feet, both in full recognition of what you now posess and with the faculty of wisdom, the lessons from a thousand teachers suddenly all clicking into piece, it is that final piece in that 30,000 piece mosaic.

Less of my ramblings of joy, having now moved scarily onwards from the humble and much used paintbrushes towards pallet knives and inanimate objects for mark making I have suddenly found something that fills in the gaps as it were in impasto works, in fact, filling in the gaps is not such an accurate euphimism because it enables quite the opposite in fact, it creates gaps, gaps where the underpainting allows a glimpse through the layers that have been carefully placed atop its neighbouring colours.

this creates such images to show through with such clarity that to attempt to enhance each and every line and shade would, for sure, ruin the creation of something quite spectacular and exciting, why would I want to hide such beauty.

At an earlier time in my life I denied myself this 'liberation' this, sudden realisation that there exists an omnipotent power to which our entire lives do orientate, yin and yang, whatever it has many meanings; to experience a life that is driven entirely upon faith alone is a scary prospect on a day to day basis.

The denial bit was simply my determined nature that, if I was going to take notice of this 'life energy', I was not going to start giving up what I had until such a power had proven to me that it truly existed, in essence I was determined to believe only what I saw and to question everything about my life; I have reached a point now where I feel as though a part of a me is seeking enlitenment through wisdom, hey if I only reach 10% enlitenment that makes me 10% of a buddah and that is not doing bad at all.